I’m using twitter to explore my sexuality which is interesting. There is a whole world I knew nothing of only a few months ago.
When I have a breakdown I re examine everything I think and believe.
I have been a strict Christian for 25 years so my views of sexuality have been very fixed. One man one woman for life. We’ve been Married for a long time…
My thoughts are definitely not so clear now.
On Twitter I have learned so much. I’ve made friends with some lovely blokes who love panties as much as I do. I love that they feel free to explore and express this part of themselves.
I’ve met many people who have to be sensible and respectable in their day to day live, but on Twitter, they can explore and express who they are. I love it.
As I’ve explored this with some lovely friends, I’m realising sexuality is not fixed. It is a spectrum we may be straight or bi curious or bisexual or……. many many other things.
As I started to think about this, it really screwed with my head. I was so used to religion with it’s fixed rules and this blew my mind a bit. Chatting to my psychotherapist as well as some wonderful bi and lesbian girls, has helped so much to get my head around it.
I’ve learned about some sexual practices I’d never thought of before, some I found a little disturbing to be honest, and some we have now tried as a couple for ourselves.
I think, seeing yourself as a square peg in a round hole is long term damaging to your mental health, using energy all the time to suppress parts of yourself.
I think admitting who you are and finding a way to express it is a healthy way to live.
Please feel free to let me know what you think in the comments below.