This blog may surprise you if you have read my blogs before.
This blog is my place to reflect, think and work out what the fuck is going on in my head, so here goes…
As I may have mentioned before, I am a Christian and go to church. As I have discovered more about myself I’m struggling to see how who I am now fit with this
I find it difficult to read the Bible connect with it like I used to.
On Sunday a lady was speaking about reading the Bible and how she draws encouragement and strength from that.
I found that difficult to connect with but when she mentioned Psalm 23 I remembered during a really shitty time when I was sat in A&E after an overdose. I sat and coloured the words to this Psalm. Despite everything I have been through and all I have changed.
A Psalm of David.
The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell[a] in the house of the Lord
I still find these words comforting.
I’m not sure if after the dust has settled for me I will go back to the faith I had or quite how it will look.
I’ve come through a breakdown before and come through the other side stronger, I’m wondering how it will work out this time.