Open letter to my friends

Open letter to my friends

I see it sometimes you look at me as if I have two heads. Yes, I have changed a lot but I’m still me. I even look different with my coloured hair and nose pierced., but I’m still the same person you have known for years.

Yes, I am much more sweary and loud and unpredictable. The sweary is one way of coping​ with all the crap going on. I’m sorry if my profanity offends you.

I notice that look in my direction but not approach me. You can’t bear my answer and others who ask how I am and I reply “Crap”, I see the dissapointment in your eyes. I wish I could try harder to get better but I simply can’t. I’m disappointed this crap is still ongoing too.

Kind ones of you send me encouraging Bible verses, I don’t have the heart to say I’m not even sure if I believe in God at the moment.

Some of you take the time to listen, to see beyond the crazy, out there, loud exterior I try to use to mask my daily battle to fight my demons and stay alive. You see the frustration and cry with me. For this I thank you so much.

3 thoughts on “Open letter to my friends

  • September 2nd, 2017 at 1:12 pm
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    Good letter blog , you are really putting it all out there and can see your misery! But don’t give up and I know that deep down in your heart you still believe in God ! He is there with you , he knows what you are going through and he has a plan for you , we mite not see it or even think he is listening but he is , always he is with you , he will never leave you nor forsake you! The devil wants us all , he’s always looking for a crack to get in and wreck havoc in our lives ! You are a strong loving woman and have a beautiful family ! i am praying for you and your family my friend ! Take care and stay safe !

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    • October 3rd, 2017 at 1:22 pm
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      Kerry you are so lovely. Thanks x

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  • September 14th, 2017 at 5:29 am
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    You are NOT alone. I sense, feel, and have experienced all that you are flowing with here, and more. As I have extended to all of my friends; please feel free to reach out and contact me should you ever need that “outside ear” or sounding board…

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