Open letter to my friends

Open letter to my friends

I see it sometimes you look at me as if I have two heads. Yes, I have changed a lot but I’m still me. I even look different with my coloured hair and nose pierced., but I’m still the same person you have known for years.

Yes, I am much more sweary and loud and unpredictable. The sweary is one way of coping​ with all the crap going on. I’m sorry if my profanity offends you.

I notice that look in my direction but not approach me. You can’t bear my answer and others who ask how I am and I reply “Crap”, I see the dissapointment in your eyes. I wish I could try harder to get better but I simply can’t. I’m disappointed this crap is still ongoing too.

Kind ones of you send me encouraging Bible verses, I don’t have the heart to say I’m not even sure if I believe in God at the moment.

Some of you take the time to listen, to see beyond the crazy, out there, loud exterior I try to use to mask my daily battle to fight my demons and stay alive. You see the frustration and cry with me. For this I thank you so much.

4 thoughts on “Open letter to my friends

  • September 2nd, 2017 at 1:12 pm
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    Good letter blog , you are really putting it all out there and can see your misery! But don’t give up and I know that deep down in your heart you still believe in God ! He is there with you , he knows what you are going through and he has a plan for you , we mite not see it or even think he is listening but he is , always he is with you , he will never leave you nor forsake you! The devil wants us all , he’s always looking for a crack to get in and wreck havoc in our lives ! You are a strong loving woman and have a beautiful family ! i am praying for you and your family my friend ! Take care and stay safe !

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    • October 3rd, 2017 at 1:22 pm
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      Kerry you are so lovely. Thanks x

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  • September 14th, 2017 at 5:29 am
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    You are NOT alone. I sense, feel, and have experienced all that you are flowing with here, and more. As I have extended to all of my friends; please feel free to reach out and contact me should you ever need that “outside ear” or sounding board…

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  • October 9th, 2017 at 7:56 pm
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    You are a strong lady! Everyone has their own battles .. some more than others
    And coping with the crap is also so personal..

    Here if you need anything.. just to chat about the weather and boring stuff… or anything else xxx

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